Hey, I’m Colette. Grab a cup of coffee and hang out awhile. I’m so glad you’re here!
I have rewritten this “About” page at least five times. FIVE times! Each time it highlighted something different about me. I started out as a Coach, then moved more into my creative side, then went into wedding planning, sprinkled a little coaching and creativity here and there all the while staying silent on what I have always wanted to write about and yet never felt qualified to:
That’s a big scary word for some and for others, holds very little meaning. The fear that comes with studying such a big topic is that we are constantly faced with all the things we do not know. It’s humility and humbling. So we avoid studying altogether and simply allow those “gifted” teachers to tell us what the Bible says about God.
The moment I became a follower of Jesus and his teachings, I had an instant love for the Word. I hungered to know about Him and His Word, and to be guided by Him through all of life. Some of my fondest memories were browsing through the Christian book store in small town Eagle River, Alaska to find the next topic or book I would study. Years later I found myself frustrated by my continued lack of understanding and ended up in Portland, OR at Bible College to finish my undergrad degree. I graduated with my bachelors in Bible and Theology, with a second major in Music. Soon after graduation I got a Bookkeeping job and didn’t use my degree once until my husband landed a youth pastor job in SE Portland, and by mere association I was able to “pastor” some pretty great kids for a while.
One of my biggest obstacles in pursuing a Bible and Theological education and thereafter using my degree was that
I had zero vision as a woman
in this sphere except for Women’s Ministry or Children’s ministry. I have never felt called to either of those ministries and so I tried Worship Leading for a time which ended with me gaining a thicker layer of skin but losing my love for the ministry. So I opted for being a receptionist, an Office Manager, a professional organizer, a health coach, and so on and so forth. I jumped from job to job looking for anything that mimicked ministry but never finding it.
Fast forward to 2020, I am now finding the courage (at almost 40 years of age) that my calling has and will also be to learn and teach Biblical theology through both writing and in ministry roles. All those other “about” pages that talked about #bravingforward was the cry of my own heart to step out from my hidden place and brave being “wrong” in areas people believe women to be, in order to be right where I feel God calling me, learning and teaching theology. I desire to create space for people to ask the hard questions, to doubt, to be open to discussing and learning and growing. This goes both ways too! We learn best when we are open to learning from each other and not be a passive consumer of knowledge but to engage it and push back on it.
This blog isn’t just for women but most of my readers are because there is a generation of women who are finally tired of being silenced and inactive in their callings because of their gender. Years later after being a “pastor” alongside my husband who was the actual Youth Pastor we discovered that he never, NEVER wanted to be in ministry but I did. He never wanted to teach the Bible but I did. I never thought in a million years this is where I would be but the conditioning of being a “pastor’s wife” I experienced as a young woman has worn off and I no longer need to slip through the backdoors of ministry and teaching in order to have a seat at the table.
My theology allows me to walk right through the front door and take a seat at a table that I believe is big enough to fit the whole of God’s kingdom.
Bigger table theology simply means that we are leaning into the diversity of the Kingdom of God through learning and engaging with those who may think, look, and participate differently in God’s Kingdom. For far too long, we have had a singular voice teaching the masses and have missed out on the voices that have much to teach us. From women to Native American’s, every person has a seat at God’s table and it’s their turn to talk.