2018 in Recovery

I think it’s time to crawl out from under my rock and get my eyes once again adjusted to the light. 2018 was such a whirlwind that I am feeling a little beat-up by all of it. I feel that as we get older the years pass through us less gracefully than they did in our vibrant years of 20-something. Life is just a bit more jarring and the recovery period keeps getting stretch out longer and longer. Let me do a quick recap of 2018 first before I move into more details about our fertility journey.

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Spiritual pratices for the summer brain

Summer brings a rush of relief from a busy Fall and Winter (which is soon to be around the corner). Summer also brings us more margin, allowing us to engage in activities that Fall or Winter kept us from. But summer can also be a time when we fill those margins so full with activities, desiring to experience all that we could before fall arrives. Ironically this leaves us feeling exhausted and surprised at how “fast” the summer went by. As I wrote in the previous blog What our souls need more than beachsides and margaritas this summer is that our summers can also be a time to feed our souls.

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How I keep going to church

My dearest friend,

You had asked me “How do you do it?” while sitting in a busy car with a crying baby.

It wasn’t a question pertaining to my accomplishments but about how I continue to be apart of a church, or the church I should say. With all its flaws and failures, you were looking for an answer as to how I keep being apart of the church. We never got to finish our conversation, so this is my answer to you and to anyone else wondering how I keep going to church.

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What our souls need more than beachsides and margaritas this summer

Ahhh summer… It’s so magical even when it’s ridiculously hot outside like it is now, here in Portland. Our bodies awaken from a winter slumber, our energy spikes, we start planning trips and hikes, and watch our gardens grow. We move at a different pace during these months and much of it is focused on rest and play. And yet, even with a new, slower pace I still find myself saying, “It’s mid-July!! Where did my summer go?!”

Summers can be a great season to start new habits as well especially when it comes to our health. We are more active in the summer, eating more fresh produce especially here in Portland where the Farmers Markets are plentiful! But summer can also be a time where we start to let other habits slip.

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When your distractions need a good beat-down this Advent season…

“You worship what you ultimately find most beautiful.” (Dr. Paul Metzger)

This Advent season I have found myself more distracted than ever. It could be a combination of starting a new job, then starting my Masters, and planning a trip to Europe for In-vitro. All of it seemed to come crashing onto my shores at one this fall and I found myself looking for high ground. Especially in media and TV once again: My “go-to” escape.

Can we become addicted to our distractions?

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Why Theology Matters

Our theology is more important that we think it is. It may be because we somehow came to the conclusion that we “get it”. Especially those of us who have been raised in the church, we learned about Jesus from a young age on colorful Sunday School felt boards, asked Him to come into our hearts and now all is well. We feel like we “get” who Jesus is which allows us to move onto other things like serving in the church and being nice to our neighbor. Not that any of those things are bad within themselves but if we have moved past Jesus than we have completely missed the point. If our theology (especially our Christology) simply motivations us to have better quiet times then it certainly won’t ask us to lay our life down.

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Called – eBook Coming This Fall!

You have a purpose. You have been intricately designed by the Creator of the universe who loves you wildly and is completely involved in your life. He has gifted and sent you to into the world to live out what is means to be fully loved. This “sending out” is what I like to call our callings. These callings take many different forms and can often lie dormant as we go about our busy lives. But one thing I know for sure, is that we are called and we have the opportunity to either follow our callings or completely ignore them.

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Discipline & Grace

I have to be honest: I really want to give up around the last week of every plan. My flesh says to me “Well good job, you’ve memorized enough.” The tendency for me to go half way or three-quarters the way feels “good enough” for my flesh. This is why I love Paul’s letter to the Corinthians so dearly.

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Giving Up TV

It was 2015 and I was stuck in a job where I felt like someone’s “minion” rather than an employee. My husband was working swing shift and we only had a few windows of time to see each other each week. We did what we could do to spend quality time together but they were few and far between.

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Searching For Enough

A loud, boisterous laugh broke from a woman sitting in the back room after the speaker stated: “and I also homeschool my kids.” The laughter went on for a few seconds and died down quickly. The laughter was curious to a few but rang true for many.

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